Daring to move on

Sadness overtakes me some days at the thought of Kaboom. Together in SL we were great, but things happen and people change. I still think of him daily and miss his voice. He held my heart for a short while and he took great care of it, but i was a coward and couldn't do what i was about to do. I was scared and unsure of myself, and he paid the price for that. And for that i will be forever sorry. He never deserved that. I never saw myself as a person who could break someone like him. It's a hard thing to admit to oneself and to the world. He is a caring person who I should have stayed far far away from. I will never regret the time we spent together and the love shared, but I will regret the harm that came to us. What i would give to see him again one day. But time stops for no man or woman.

So as I tried to recover, I started building. I threw myself into the work. I stayed far away from people and those who knew us to be a couple. I still attended to the family but only as an outsider or so i thought in my mind. But I began to build and really see what I could do in SL by myself. One day I TPed into Open Collar to look at textures of some collars. My attention was drawn to Sam. This was done when he pulled my pyro tail. Now granted, anyone who wears a tail is tempting someone to pull it, and I am no different. I admit, i wanted some attention. I wanted to talk to someone, anyone who didnt know about my past. Someone to start fresh with with no opinion on what i did.