Another night of sleeplessness. Seems no matter what I do these days, I cannot go to sleep and stay there for more than a couple hours. But I guess it's all well and good for my readers, because here I am, writing to you, about my adventures in SL. I really don't know where to begin. My head is a bit foggy tonight, and most every other night, but I will do the best I can.

Darren and I have a blast, like all the time. Sure, we have our chill days, but mostly we play none stop. It may be under the sea, or riding a comet, or even dancing the night away. Whatever we do, we enjoy the time we have with each other. He is my partner in every way shape and form. There is only one problem: I kinda miss being just me.

I don't miss the alone time, just the 'I can do what I wish and no one can tell me no' part. I don't want to back away from Darren, on the contrary, I want him with me forever. Maybe it's the sub thing. I mean, I'm a switch, not just a sub; so I need my freedom sometimes. I need that feeling of empowerment that comes with being a Dom. I need... something.

The more I think about it, the more I realize that I don't want to be a Dom on these days, I just don't want to be a sub. I want to run around and meet new people, maybe screw someones brains out and never see them again. Is this wrong of me? I don't think it is, but I'm sure there are people who would. I mean, I have Darren; the most caring, loving, wonderful man in SL but I want to go have a one nighter with someone. *sighs* I think I'm allowed. He's done it, so I can too. *Settles down happily*

So I guess I will have to tell Darren this at some point tomorrow, after our morning romp of course :) and we can figure out where we go from there. I love you dear heart.