A Breath of Time

On sleepless nights such as these, visions and stories invade my mind. And unless I take the time to sort them out,  they shift through as a jumbled mass of information and fantasies. It's as if I am dreaming while awake. Now granted, I'm not complaining in the least, but the time it takes to piece them together could very well be a full nights sleep. So for tonight I will stay awake and try to present these ideas as perfect little gift wrapped boxes for the reader to open up and explore.



I really do like you,
But to you we're just friends
Will I ever feel the same?
I guess it just depends

Can I stop breathing so fast
Each time you appear?
Will my heart not skip a beat
Each time you come near?

I could try to stay away from you
And it would erase this thrill
But that's asking the impossible
Because loving you, I always will

Lights a ciggy and prepares to hop on the next wave of enlightenment.

Take a tiny  breath of air and imagine it is your life span. We are all just these tiny intakes of breath in the true passage of time. We are all born, we live, and we die. There is not getting around that. Most people believe that even though our lives are so limited  ( from sixty to a hundred years or so) we can still accomplish  many great things. But the most important thing of all has to do with who you have touched. 

          When I was very young, say age six or seven, I used to ride my bike to and from school. There were many different roads I could take home and I chose different ones a lot. I was going down one of my favorite ones and looking at all the old style victorian homes when I spotted this little old man walking and cleaning up after his equally old dog. I waved and went on my way. As the year passed, I would stop and talk to the old man and pet his sweet dog. One day as we were talking about types of flowers and trees, he took both his thumbs and forefingers and made them into the shape of a rectangular. He brought them up and framed my as if he were looking through a camera. He said to me, and I have never forgotten this " You will be a heart breaker someday". 

          This statement changed my life. I remember thinking: "Someday, somebody will actually fall in love with me."  At that age I never really thought I was as pretty as all the other girls. I had an unruly mass of blonde hair and my knees were always scraped and bruised. After that day I felt as if my world had changed and I could be something someone could fall for. It picked me up from a place that I never knew til now that I was in.
          Take one day at a time and do something kind for someone. Don't say "well they're not worth my time" or "It doesn't even matter" because it does matter. Each and every time you say or do something nice for a person, it changes that person. It may not be in a way that you can see but trust me, it does. So use that tiny breath that we call our lives and change someone else's intake of a breath.

Dance in laughter
Take delight in tiny sips
The essence of life
Can be tasted on my lips

Hold onto your dreams
Let loose and fly
Drift through the horizon
On the winds gusty sigh

Our spirits collide
It's a gift to behold
As our souls intertwine
All watch the glory unfold

We make music and love
As our souls are now one
We drift back to earth
As our story is done


Kicks back for another ciggy and pops some M&M's




On a separate note: SL has been going great. I have a very good friend there and we are almost inseparable. I have never really saw myself as clingy but I believe that I could become that way. I want to spend all my time with this person and share all the little things that I have seen that day. But I guess we shall see won't we?