The Heart is Appeased

Yesterday wound up being a little test for myself. Usually, if I spend an extremely large amount of time with some, and I do this all in one day, at sometime we usually run out of things to say. I am happy to report that this did not happen. Even at the wee hours of the mornings I still had things to say and was almost bursting with them. Even while watching a movie we talked (which I don't do often but I couldn't help myself ).

We went to a dance a couple days ago and actually won the contest. It was a lot of fun, plus Emi and Otto were there!

But I'm getting ahead of myself. The first few days of our relationship went something like this:
We took turns checking out sims. He found great joy in showing me sims I have never been to; and I took an equal amount of joy seeing them and showing him new sims.

                     Now this picture is actually us inside an airplane that was supposed to simulate a hurricane.
There were many devices that simulated natural occurrences, such as a glacier, a tsunami, and a real time weather map.

This just about cut the cake. We are both fans of Star Trek. He even passed me some Star Trek uniforms!

Oh, and fair warning to all the ladies out there who might have it in the brains to maybe try to steal him away...    BACK OFF, OR YOU'LL GET HURT

hehe

This... well who could resist?

Perfect ending to one of our perfect days

So we finally dug out the old TV and watched Pirate of the Caribbean: On stranger tides (number 4). And I have to tell you, if you have not seen the movie yet... by god go see it. Even though a lot of the characters are missing, like Will Turner and Elizabeth Swann, it was still a great movie. Go see it, I promise you will not be disappointed. Oh, and he surprised me after the movie with a Jack Sparrow Avi! I believe I was speechless for a full five mins. Smiles

The night ended with us exploring a favorite sim of mine. It's a peaceful place and has many secret hideaways. We did wind up finally at my house to dance for a while before we both reluctantly said goodnight and slipped away.
          I don't think I will ever get over the fact that we can talk about anything and never feel like we will be judged or upset the other. Reframes from being like those pesky seagulls on FINDING NEMO and always going "mine, mine, mine, mine." 

That Night

One day, not so very long ago I wanted to go out and enjoy the company of my friends. I knew that a close friend was throwing a party at his club (every tuesday and friday night). So I put on my best outfit and headed on over. As I arrived I was greeted by my best friends Cat and Otto. A few other friends were there including Emi and Natsuki. Now Cat and Otto are a couple so I didnt want to jump in and ask for a dance with Otto, so I danced alone on a stripper pole (nothing too naughty mind you)
          Not too long into the first few songs, I was approached by a very good looking man named Darren. Right off the bat I thought him to be intelligent and rather nice. Throwing caution to the wind, I ask him to dance, which he accepted with delight.We danced most the night together with a few interruptions (Emi, another cute girl and I did a 3-way dance). As the night wore on and Darren and I became close, I decided to see if he wanted to go back to my place. Now getting the nerve up to ask this was actually very easy considering how much I enjoyed his company.
          As I drove him to my home I started to get a little nervous. Taking a deep breath and counting to 10 helped a lot. I remember grabbing his hand and leading him into my bedroom with all the coolness of a seasoned pro, all the while my heart was beating like a caged bird under attack.
Then, he kissed me. It was like the Forth of July in my mouth. Right away I knew that whatever happened here would be not only accepted, but enjoyed by both of us. Letting my guard down was the easiest thing ever that night.
           Somehow over the course of the evening he had become in tuned with me. Seemed like everything that popped into my head he was already a step ahead of me. As his fingers grazed my skin I felt goosebumps rise and my toes curled up on their own. He knew just what spot to kiss and what my body wanted. When his teeth nipped my neck, I almost cried. How could someone I had just met know everything about me?
          As the night progressed, things started to get rather...slippery. *licks lips* We knew each others buttons and exactly when to push (or rather stroke them). We touched, licked, kissed, and stroked every inch of each other. We were so in grossed in the other person that we didnt even feel time pass.
          My radio was playing some slow groove love songs  that set our pace. Our bodies slid across each others like they were meant for each other. His chin fit perfectly in the nape of my neck; his fingers were made for the hollows of my hips; and his lips meshed with mine with the ease of someone I had known forever.
          He filled me to the extent that I thought I would explode, and explode I did. As I floated in the afterglow of total fulfillment I realized that this person, Darren, we someone who had a gift. His gift was one that few men have. It's the gift of being able to satisfy a woman's mind, body, and soul.  Now I don't know if the neighbors heard us or not and I don't really care, but if they did then I know that they needed a cigarette after that night. The house shook with the sounds of our passion. The headboard made deep dents in my wall that I'm sure the landlord will want to know about.

There is so  much more to this story, but the details, I have decided to keep to myself. There are things that I will forever hold close to me. But for all those who are reading this: I hope that one day this type of fulfillment will find you. It's unlike anything you have ever imagined. Having a love that reaches into RL but doesn't destroy your RL is a precious gift. If you ever do find this, hold tight to it.

A Breath of Time

On sleepless nights such as these, visions and stories invade my mind. And unless I take the time to sort them out,  they shift through as a jumbled mass of information and fantasies. It's as if I am dreaming while awake. Now granted, I'm not complaining in the least, but the time it takes to piece them together could very well be a full nights sleep. So for tonight I will stay awake and try to present these ideas as perfect little gift wrapped boxes for the reader to open up and explore.



I really do like you,
But to you we're just friends
Will I ever feel the same?
I guess it just depends

Can I stop breathing so fast
Each time you appear?
Will my heart not skip a beat
Each time you come near?

I could try to stay away from you
And it would erase this thrill
But that's asking the impossible
Because loving you, I always will

Lights a ciggy and prepares to hop on the next wave of enlightenment.

Take a tiny  breath of air and imagine it is your life span. We are all just these tiny intakes of breath in the true passage of time. We are all born, we live, and we die. There is not getting around that. Most people believe that even though our lives are so limited  ( from sixty to a hundred years or so) we can still accomplish  many great things. But the most important thing of all has to do with who you have touched. 

          When I was very young, say age six or seven, I used to ride my bike to and from school. There were many different roads I could take home and I chose different ones a lot. I was going down one of my favorite ones and looking at all the old style victorian homes when I spotted this little old man walking and cleaning up after his equally old dog. I waved and went on my way. As the year passed, I would stop and talk to the old man and pet his sweet dog. One day as we were talking about types of flowers and trees, he took both his thumbs and forefingers and made them into the shape of a rectangular. He brought them up and framed my as if he were looking through a camera. He said to me, and I have never forgotten this " You will be a heart breaker someday". 

          This statement changed my life. I remember thinking: "Someday, somebody will actually fall in love with me."  At that age I never really thought I was as pretty as all the other girls. I had an unruly mass of blonde hair and my knees were always scraped and bruised. After that day I felt as if my world had changed and I could be something someone could fall for. It picked me up from a place that I never knew til now that I was in.
          Take one day at a time and do something kind for someone. Don't say "well they're not worth my time" or "It doesn't even matter" because it does matter. Each and every time you say or do something nice for a person, it changes that person. It may not be in a way that you can see but trust me, it does. So use that tiny breath that we call our lives and change someone else's intake of a breath.

Dance in laughter
Take delight in tiny sips
The essence of life
Can be tasted on my lips

Hold onto your dreams
Let loose and fly
Drift through the horizon
On the winds gusty sigh

Our spirits collide
It's a gift to behold
As our souls intertwine
All watch the glory unfold

We make music and love
As our souls are now one
We drift back to earth
As our story is done


Kicks back for another ciggy and pops some M&M's




On a separate note: SL has been going great. I have a very good friend there and we are almost inseparable. I have never really saw myself as clingy but I believe that I could become that way. I want to spend all my time with this person and share all the little things that I have seen that day. But I guess we shall see won't we?

Let the good times roll...

I went to a party at Otto's place not too long ago and ran into some new people. Cat, Emi, and Otto were there and so was Darren. Now I admit I didn't think much of the few new people there because usually they wander off and don't always come back. So I did my usual and dance on the pole and listened to the great tunes. Then, i received a tip from this guy dancing by himself. It was Darren. i thought maybe, just maybe this might be someone with something interesting to say for once. ( Someday's it hard to find decent conversation from strangers in SL) So I hopped off the pole and asked Darren to dance. Turned out he had plenty to say and we hit it off great that night.

Otto was off buying a new dance for us to try out and boy did it get funny.

So I have been spending most of my time in SL hanging out with Darren and getting him into funny positions

Then there are some days when I want to be cuddled and loved on so we just float around space and chit chat.

Oh, and I saw this at Inspire Space Park and had to get a shot of it. *hehe*

There is so much more to share but I'm off to get some things done. 

P.S. There is going to be a story added to my blog soon. It is being worked on and just needs the final touches.