My Love, My Heart

A beautiful thing has happened; I now sit beside my love as his Domina. But more importantly is that we are together. He has taken my heart and is keeping it safe. I do not know what I did to deserve this kind and giving demon, but I hope he will stay by my side for years to come. I believe we will make it in the long run. We seem to both be level headed and able to talk things out. But I'm sure that if we ever do fight, the ground will shake, and the flames will be seen from miles away. Compromising is the key in all relationships.

I do prefer my human skin to my demonic one, but that is because thats who I've been for the last 7 months. My love took me to a few stores a couple days ago and I may just find a demoness skin I like more than my human skin. It would be very hard to do but not impossible. I could get lost in some of those stores. Wonder around for hours and plan my wish list.

So after I got home yesterday, I was tp'ed by my love to a party with his brother Otto as the DJ. I saw Cat almost instantly and was quickly greeted by everyone. As we swayed to the beat of the music, I got to hear the family talk amongst themselves and enjoyed the close family ties. I could have stayed in his arms forever, but alas I was called away by my friend Dela. After a few moments, that seemed like hours, I was back in the arms of my love. After the event we raced each other home and we were back in each others arms.

A few other events happened last night in my home: we were joined by Bj and her sub Goddess and also my friends Ashe and Sky stopped by. Needless to say, it was a very LONG, HARD, PLEASURE FILLED night. I do believe everyone enjoyed themselves, and each other. Thank you Sky for the gift of the bed. It will be much appreciated in the nights to come.

To my love, I know we have a long and bumpy road ahead of us, but I believe that we can make it. You hold my heart and I trust you to keep it. Your passion, your love, your humor, and your mind is what I hold dear to me. I will treasure each moment with you and look forward to the long nights ahead of us. I will sit beside you as you Domina and love our family with all my heart. You are my dearest and I Love You.

                                                Forever yours

Late nights and early mornings

So the past few nights have been filled with laughter. I've been spending a lot of time with Kaboom, getting to know him and playing around. We seem too perfect together. We're both so goofy and love to get laughs out of each other. We had a break through last night. Went further than we've gone before. Being nude around a lust demon is almost natural. We were busy pushing each others buttons all night and teasing ourselves unmercifully.

We were both sick last night but that didn't seem to slow us down. We had planned on going to bed soon but we were both still going six and half hours later. Time flies when your're having fun. Some days we go off and explore sims and go dancing, but most nights we spend laying around in my bed and talking. We will have to go find something to do tonight. Many of my friends are saying they never see me anymore, but they seem to know what's going on. Most just laugh and ask when they can meet him. A few are worried that I'm being taken over, but I believe I put those fears to rest last night.

I asked Kaboom a serious question two nights ago and got a serious answer. Now the ball is in my court and I'm still trying to work things out. So I have asked myself these questions for two days now and I'm still on the fence. It's the "what if's" that are getting to me. Like, what if they do not think I'm demoness material? Or what if I'm not good enough? Things like that. I guess there is Kaboom to teach me what I need to know.

At least I know one thing that is for sure, I like Kaboom a lot, and I plan on taking this as far as it can go. If things do not work out then at least I will still have a very dear friend. But hopefully it will turn into something beautiful and I will have more than a dear friend. Kaboom, I hope you're ready for this. Your world is about to be rocked.

" TO BE TRUSTED IS A GREATER COMPLIMENT THAN TO BE LOVED"

- George MacDonald

Relax

                             I needed some peace today, and I found it. I think this is my lucky elephant.

                                                               This mate was huge!

                                                       Finding inner peace by the water's edge.

                                                    Hmmm... room for one more.

Maybe this goddess will help me find my way.

Angels, Demons, and Dragons

I've had a very good day. Went off with Kaboom, Cat and Sky and had a grand time. At first it was just me, but soon Cat and Kaboom showed up at the Pillers of Hercules and off we went. In just a few moments we came upon a statue of medusa and stopped for a moment to take a picture. Suddenly an angel pops in.

Now I know that angels and demons do not get along, and these two were no different. I believe that the angel feared this demon so much, that when the demon asked what he was, the angel quickly stated he was a demon so as not to tempt this terrifying demon into kill him. Kaboom laughed at him and the angel quickly disappeared. Afterwards, we bounced to my house and then off to Jade Island. Skybreach joined us there and got to know Cat and Kaboom. We went to the Japan Sim and soon decided to leave. It was way too laggy. Cat soon had to leave and the rest of us went back to my house. We goofed around some but soon everyone but me had to log off.

Now I got pretty bored so I did what I always do... go play. Went dancing for a little bit but that didn't hold my interest very long. So I decided to go look for dragons. I'm so glad I did this. I found a beautiful sim with dragons everywhere.I don't remember the name but I will post it at a later date.

Far away shot. He was too scary!

This one answered a question I had about a certain Demon. 

I thought she was going to eat me.

These two were kind enough to give me directions.

A day for adventure

Enter the ancient ruins

 The details were stunning here. Even the art on the ground was breath taking

 hmmm... we were just hanging around. Trying to see the world from a different perspective.

ummm... wow

This is a night to remember. Now SL truly begins, with Razor/Kaboom.

Laughter is the best medicine.

What a good day I had yesterday. I met up with a friend and went shopping. Messii is a new vamp and a very good friend. He's a good listener and fun to be with. I showed him some new spots and he showed me a new clothing store. He bought me a very nice outfit there. He had to log soon after and I went home to check on my house.

Dela IM me and let me know there was a event going on at Candy Land. It didn't have to change or anything seeing as the event was come as you are, so i headed on out. I listened to some good tunes and talked to a few friends and let them know I was going to be ok. They had been a bit worried about considering how sick I've been. After the party, I headed back to my house and started on replacing the dances in my HUD.

I received an IM from Razor (Kaboom) and let him know what I was up too. I invited him over to see my place but he was busy at the moment. It wasn't very long after that he IM again asking for a TP. I put my work away and quickly tped him to my home. He got the grand tour. hehe. All two rooms and the outdoor area. We sat on the swing and continued to get to know each other. Soon we decided to take it indoors and test out my new bed.

It was an amusing night. Most of the pose balls have not been set right and we wound up on a few occasions stuck in the walls or even outside the house. We finally wound up in a very nice pose with us facing each other, and spent most of the night that way. We talked for hours and played 20 questions. I learned a lot about him as he did from me. I don't believe I've laughed so hard in a while; and actually slid off my chair at one point. Good thing there were plenty of blankets around me to break my fall. When it hit 3am SLT, I had to call it a night. We said goodnight and I logged off.

To Steven, who lost his life recently. We miss you.

The Mixing

The mixing of RL (real life) and SL is not something I would have thought I would ever do. And yes, giving out a picture, or phone calls, or even real name exchange, to me is mixing. Now granted, there's no harm no foul in this so far but... well I guess we will find out what happens later down the road.

What made me exchange personal info? Well lets see... I find I only do that with people that I feel I will still be friends with 15 years down the road. There are now three people in SL that know my real name. One of them I just met recently and almost instantly felt a friendship connection with, among other things. heehee. You just need to feel you can trust the person; but don't go thinking the next person you meet and chat with for 15 mins is trustworthy; unless of course you have a sense about people and can choose wisely.

I finally got a mic for my computer and voice chatted with Kaboom, Cat, Amelia, and... darn, i can't remember the last one. Anyways, they are a great bunch, and I'm seriously considering joining their family. Although I would have to iron out the details and see what it is that I'm just not willing to do. laughing maybe I'm not cut out to be a demon. But I can take my time and see if that is what I want to do. No rush for me. SL isn't going anywhere.

A few words on Vampires

I met someone about a month ago, His name is Viper. We got to talking and he mentioned he was a vampire. Now granted, I love any and all that is strange and anything that is seen as demonic or paranormal, but the thought of being a vamp and following the rules didn't appeal to me. He wanted to turn me into one but i refused. He said to think about it and get back to him. I did think about and and about a month later i decided to become a blood doll.

As a doll i get to participate in family events and have all the privileges of the clan. I just do not have to worry about finding souls and keeping my blood up. Except when i get bit, then they give you an apple to eat and all is well. And let me tell you... being bite with some of the bits they can buy... its hot. They like it when I emote to them and tell them how it feels. laughing. If your wanting to be a vamp, make sure you research the different clan and find one that suits you.

My clan is always asking if I want to turn but i tell them that im a lover not a biter. If i do decide to turn into something i dont think it will be a vamp. Granted i have alot of vamp friends, but i dont feel like thats where i belong. Im ok being a doll for them; but i will never turn vamp. I met a demon not too long ago and that sounded like something more up my ally. That is for another time.

My friends, my family: Dela & Red

Dela is a very special person to me. We have been RL friends for 6 years now and and SL friends for 6 months. Dela is married to Red in SL. He is a very good DJ and wonderful guy. She gave me a place to live and is now building me my very own SL home. She is the one I love to dance with, talk to, mess with, and get advice from. She is a hostess sometime and and a builder at other times. If you ever need something built, with low prims, and want it special and like no other, contact me inworld and i will pass it to her. She is an artist in RL and can do almost anything with a computer.

Red is a DJ. He is also the love of Dela's life. He was there for her when she needed it and waited for her... If you like music and want a DJ that will try his best to find whatever you request, he's the one. I like to keep him on his toes with my requests. Dela laughs at my antics. Red and I use Viewer 2. Dela hates Viewer 2. So Red is alway helping me figure out how to do things like the radio, and my land... etc...

They have made SL absolutely wonderful. I love you two very much.

Second Life

This blog will be dedicated to my second life. Its a world for your imagination. I must confess I'm an addict. I spent way too much time on SL aka Second Life. At first it was maybe an hour or so every couple of days. That has slowly turned into 10-16 hours a day. Yes, that is a lot, but it's my life and no one can tell me how to spend my days. But it is a good thing for you, there are plenty of adventures to be shared and keep you entertained.

I was lucky to have a RL aka Real Life best friend to help me when I first began. Her name is Dela . She had been on SL for over 2 years and knew how to get me started quickly. I started receiving skins, shapes, hair, clothes, landmarks... everything most newbies do not get until meeting people. Her and about 4 of her friends were sending me everything i could possibly need. My inventory quickly filled up and I was off to start my adventure.

I met a few people, but most were too busy to notice or even care that there was a newbie in their midst. Dela had me complete my profile very quickly. Apparently most people don't trust or hardly even talk to someone unless they have a completed profile. So i paid a photographer (Nessie) to take my profile picture and posted it. It was like WHAM... everyone wanted to talk to me now. So a note for newbies: Finish your profile asap. and add a picture while your at it.

So i goofed around at clubs, won some lindens, played the money trees, and did the traffic cone TPs. The traffic cones are ok. You can do it anytime, no matter how long you've been in SL. Do a search for Traffic cones and follow to the starting place. Grab up the tokens that multiply your winning and your on you way. You have to TP (teleport) to different sims and type in a code. Then you can goof off around the sim. You have to wait 8 mins until the cone opens and you can get your lindens. It's a very rewarding way to find some interesting sims.

Camouflage

Where do you go
when you don't want the world to see you?
You hide
in plain sight.
They never see you there, in front of their eyes.
You show them
colors they wish to see.
Wrap them all around yourself, completely.
You disappear.
Yet there you are
But know one looks close enough to see you
You blend in
with the background.
It's clever and foolproof, never breached
and yet,
What's that?
A spear of heat, pricking carefully laid armor.
Prompting you
to peek out.
And so you unfurl just a little to see what it is.
And now
Oh, now
The real you is exposed and the hurt can come
Will you stay
or cocoon?
Is it worth the pain to ditch the camouflage
And so
your eyes speak
And your wings wrap you tightly once more
And there you are
gone again